WATCH: My Daily Vlogs From Thailand Are Up!

Experience the journey with me through these video diaries.

Man, what a journey.

After my Thailand retreat at the top of March, I decided to spend two extra weeks solo traveling across the country.

To say that I was nervous about this would be an understatement. I had multiple full-blown panic attacks the day of my departure (one of which you will witness in the vlog).

When I booked my return flight for the end of March, I had zero hesitation. It was one of those moments where I felt totally in flow, but when the time came to actually leave and reality set in, I wondered WTF was I thinking?!

There’s nothing like seeing how far away Thailand is on a map to make you want to shit yourself.

I had multiple people who initially were going to join me, but things kept falling through, making me believe that God was very intentional about this experience—and I was always meant to do it alone.

I was pissed about that. I was scared. I was bitter.

And, at the same time, I know it needed to happen. This felt like an initiation—living proof of me showing up in ways that solidified the work I’ve been doing all these years while also embodying the beliefs that I always say (I am safe and protected).

I always said I wanted to travel the world and document it, and I did that. Sure, in my ideal scenario I was joined by my partner who would be my co-pilot for the whole experience, but that’s not how this panned out.

Still, I enjoyed myself. I can’t tell you if it was Thailand specifically, or just the solo travel experience (because this was my first time), but there’s a liberation that is so palpably birthed through venturing a foreign country by yourself. Especially as a woman.

Especially as a woman who has been assaulted, followed, intimidated and made to feel powerless, which I realized on this trip, is my greatest fear.

Documenting this trip through these vlogs was fun for me. It brought me back to my journalism roots. Capturing scenic views and telling a story is what I love, and I think a part of me forgot how much I love that.

I was the director, producer, cinematographer, writer, host and editor for these, so there are inconsistencies (because I was tired), but I hope you enjoy witnessing the journey through these videos. Everything was shot on my iPhone with a stiff arm, ha.

In these vlogs, you’ll experience my perspective of the retreat, as well as the adventures of solo traveling to Koh Samui, Krabi and Chiang Mai. There are luxurious moments, frustrating moments and tearful moments, sunsets and sunrises, elephants and monkeys, gnarly sunburns and bamboo-needle tattoos.

Thailand showed me peace, culture and intentionality. It reminded me of what’s most important, and I’d be lying if I said that I don’t miss it already.

Enjoy the journey and I’ll see you at the next adventure!

Xo