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Your Weekly Oracle Reading (01.23.2023)
Letting go of what's holding you back.
Happy Monday, dear friends.
I hope this weekend treated you kindly and provided you with whatever energy it was that you needed at this time.
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This Aquarius New Moon was a powerful one, so you may have felt its charge over the weekend. Whether that came through new insights, a recharge of energy, a release of old energy or just an inner fire of preparing for what’s to come, continue to surrender to the process of how things are unfolding.
For those of you who’d like a quick soundbath meditation to help you zen through the day, I decided to record a little something for Aquarius season.
This 15-minute soundbath meditation is a Reiki-infused audio file that includes intention setting, a guided body scan to calm and center your energy and then a soundbath with the bowls, chimes and some nature sounds to help ground your heart and sacral energy.
Additionally, after two days of technological agony, my latest YouTube reading is finally up!
When I tell you I was ready to throw this damn MacBook across the room. Tech issues really bring out my impatience, but that’s neither here nor there…
I tried something a little different this time around.
Instead of doing the reading based on January (especially since it’s practically over, lol), I’m focusing on Aquarius season. This is still a collective reading, regardless of your sign.
Additionally, I include major astro transits and dates during that time period for you to keep in mind, in case you’re curious about implementing this information into your day-to-day.
Check it out below and share the love if you found it helpful!
As for this week’s reading, it looks like there may have been some releases that happened over the weekend, and thank goodness.
I know this will sound incredibly specific, but this is what I’m feeling—for whoever this message is for, you’ve held on to a lot of shame and guilt over things you couldn’t control.
There may have been a lot of mental scenarios that were playing back for you this weekend, but not in a reflective way as much as it feels like…punishment?
This might have been old shadow energy or inner critic density coming back up, but it’s almost like you guys can’t let go of decisions made in the past because of the way it hurt you. And for whatever reason, you continue to go back and berate yourself for things unfolding the way they did, as if you could’ve done things differently.
What is beautiful is it feels like you began to notice how unrealistic this expectation is of yourself. It’s understandable that you don’t want to experience the same hurts that have made a mark on you, but it’s stung so deep that there’s fear of experiencing anything other than that.
I know that sounds backwards, but it’s classic self-sabotage. And also, something with a subconscious need for self-punishment stemming from a negative self-image or story that you’ve accepted about yourself (that you’re “bad,” “broken,” “stupid,” “reckless”…).
For a long time, you perpetuated that belief by subconsciously accepting it as a truth, and therefore engaging in interactions and situations that helped confirm this to you and ultimately keep the story alive.
You’re finally seeing it now, and you’re ready to let it go.
With the 5 of Cups in reverse here, there’s self-forgiveness for past pain that you’ve made your fault. You made it your fault because it gave you a sense of control, and sometimes that’s easier than dealing with the lack of closure on a particular situation.
You’re finding peace and acceptance in what was and what is, which is creating space for new hopes and wishes and what’s to come.
You’re done grieving over something that was never yours to carry to begin with, but you got caught up in the illusion of it all and made it your issue. This illusion ends now.
For some of you, this week may present you with new insights or clarity on a matter that finally puts the issue at rest. I keep saying “the issue” because it feels like a particular experience is coming up for you.
This is restoring your energy and allowing you to step into the King of Wands energy, where you’ll feel more inclined to take the lead in your life through aligned action and bold moves.
You see the big picture and you know it’s within reach, and you’re not willing to let yourself get in the way of that again.
There’s Scorpio energy here (specifically in Mars and Venus), as well as Leo energy, so these placements may be significant for you or someone else connected to this reading as additional confirmation, but they don’t have to be.
The numerology of this reading is 12, which reduces to a 3, but the energy feels more like 12, so I’m going to go with that interpretation. In numerology, 12 can be a number of completion, and “a powerful number that can often be associated with challenges of faith, trust, and surrender. When you focus on these challenges, you will be able to overcome them and create new beginnings in your life. The number 12 can also help you connect with your higher self and understand secret meanings in life.”
Have a beautiful week, and take care of yourselves.
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