Happy Monday, friends.
I hope you had a beautiful weekend full of love, joy, balance and rest.
Before getting into the reading for this week, I wanted to make a couple of announcements concerning my services:
Many of you have asked about my coaching services and my Shadow Work Program. I’ve been trying to come up with something that makes sense and can offer some flexibility, so keep an eye out for an informational Zoom invite if that’s something you’re interested in.
I will be adding a Shadow Birth Chart reading service next month. This birth chart reading will focus on the shadow and karmic placements in your chart as opposed to a general reading which is an overview of your entire chart. More details on that soon!
Lastly, the rate for my Seeker Calls will be increasing from $77 to $101 as of February 7. I know that’s a steep raise, and I truly wish I didn’t have to, but this economy is trippin’.
OK, now let’s get into this week’s reading…
For whoever this message is for, there is some deep wound when it comes to relationships that is preventing you from moving forward.
You may find yourself in a place of stagnancy when it comes to love, either dealing with rejection and a bunch of false starts or feeling a lack of passion and energy when it comes to partnership.
This may also bleed over into a lack of creativity, feeling distracted and experiencing some kind of hesitancy.
However this block is manifesting for you, it’s rooted from some great loss you experienced in the past. With the 3 of Swords here, you may still be carrying a lot of grief over past heartache.
There may have been a lot of sorrow over this, and even some bouts of depression. This experience tainted your view on what was possible for you in the future.
That pretty picture of your happily ever after may have felt like a complete sham or something that you now think is unrealistic, so you’ve shut yourself off to the possibility in an attempt to silence the part of you that still yearns for it.
If this is true for you, there are two paths presenting themselves to you at this time…
You can either overindulge in material things as an attempt to fill a void, go out and be reckless and end up realizing that superficial things will never fill that hole in your heart—OR you can begin to open yourself back up to the possibilities.
With Temperance (not pictured) at the top of the deck, there is healing, balance and serenity available to you, but you have to be the one to actively choose it, and once you do, you have to be patient with the process.
Part of the reason you’re experiencing pump-fakes with these relationships is because you’re rushing it. If we’re gonna keep it real, I’m not sure you even really liked those people before. You just wanted someone to make you forget about the pain you’re still carrying.
That’s always gonna blow up in your face, because it’s not authentic (and can bring some shitty karma).
Listen, I know all about heartbreak (maybe a little too well), but I also know about miracles, and if I’ve learned anything over the course of my life so far, it’s that the only way to witness a miracle is to believe they exist.
Otherwise, you might pass by a miracle on the street and not even notice it (or them), because you’re too busy wallowing in your misery.
I understand I might be coming off a bit sassier than usual here, but it’s feeling like whoever this message is for needs it right now.
The past is over. The pain is what keeps it present. And you’re what keeps the pain alive.
Be intentional about your healing. It’s not just gonna knock on your door one day and tell you it’s time to stop being sad. You have to be the one to decide that. And if you’re not ready yet, that’s OK, but if you want change in your life, it’s your job to make that happen.
The Universe will always provide you with what you need, but will you make something of it?
If nothing else, order copies of my books so you can read about my shitty dating experiences and maybe feel better about yourself.
But in all seriousness, you deserve love and you’re worthy of it, so stop pushing it away.
There’s fire energy here (Aries, Leo, Sagittarius), as well as Libra (Saturn) energy and Capricorn (Sun) energy, so these placements may be significant for you or someone else connected to this reading as additional confirmation, but they don’t have to be.
The numerology of this reading is 8. In numerology, 8 can “refer to those people who impress others with their strong personality, intensity and magnetism, through self-confidence they demonstrate the ease of mastering any situation. They are recognized and respected for their moral integrity, sense of justice, honesty, and courage.”
Have a beautiful week, and take care of yourselves.
Xo
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