Happy Monday, friends.
I hope you had time to rest and balance yourself this weekend, especially with all of this crazy weather.
If you’ve been feeling emotionally all over the place, know that you’re not alone. Maybe it’s specific situations coming up, maybe it’s Pisces season, maybe it’s a collective cleanse…either way, remember that it’s all temporary.
Speaking of emotions coming in and ruffling shit up, this week’s reading has themes surrounding love.
As always, take what resonates and leave the rest.
For whoever this message is for, you’ve been feeling imbalanced when it comes to love. This can have something to do with an external relationship or the relationship with yourself. Most likely, it’s a fun bag of both, because they are often very much interconnected.
You might be experiencing some conflict or detachment when it comes to love or with a partner. There may be some confusion on how to move forward.
If this is the case for you, the cards are asking—are you giving this your all or are you sabotaging?
These themes have come up in recent readings, so I feel like if you’ve been resonating with those messages, you’re probably part of this group, too.
There’s a sense that someone’s not putting in full effort and that’s creating setbacks and missed opportunities. Again, this can be you or someone you’re involved with, but in a way, I feel like you’re mirroring each other.
I feel a lot of fear here. There are slick and subconscious defense mechanisms at play that prevent you from really investing into what this could become, because by accepting what this could become, you also have to accept the changes that will follow.
For some of you, these changes require surrender, a loss of control, a different mindset, being vulnerable and allowing yourself to trust someone else.
Maybe you’ve gotten incredibly comfortable only relying on yourself, so the thought that you may create a bond with someone who now affects your daily life freaks you out.
Maybe you’ve led a (let’s be real) selfish and reckless life up until now, and deepening this commitment will require you to consider someone else in ways you’re not sure you’re ready to do just yet.
Here’s the thing, though—these changes might be the very thing that you need to elevate to the next level.
For some of you, your resistance to change is keeping you stuck in a cycle of who you’ve always been when the Universe is trying to nudge you into who you’re becoming.
It’s not about the other person or this relationship. It’s about what this other person or relationship is asking of you. And if we’re gonna keep it a buck (which we always do), you’re afraid you won’t be able to step up to the plate.
That’s just your limiting beliefs talking.
Sure, you may not have had the best track record in the past when it comes to this stuff, but you are not that person anymore, and you’re gonna find that trying to cling to that old version of yourself is gonna hurt you more than taking the risk of finding out what could happen if you showed up differently.
You might surprise yourself and find that you actually feel more at ease in this new energy.
You’re stepping into more maturity, and yes that can be scary (responsibilities!), but it’s time, and you know this in your gut.
With the Hierophant at the bottom of the deck and the Page of Wands at the top of the deck, you’re being asked to lean on your intuition and allow adventure to lead you into this next chapter of your life.
Stop holding on to the old story. You don’t even like how it ends! You just love knowing the outcome because it makes you feel safe.
(I already read y’all to filth on IG about this.)
So what would happen if you let yourself surrender to the blank page, not trying to flip ahead to see what happens, and stayed present as this new story unfolds?
You deserve more than what you’ve experienced, and you keep asking for this, so stop getting in your own way.
There’s Earth energy here (Capricorn, Taurus, Virgo), as well as Gemini energy and Taurus (Saturn) energy, so these placements may be significant for you or someone else connected to this reading as additional confirmation, but they don’t have to be.
The numerology of this reading is 4. In numerology, 4 is a “number of focus—a focus on building a secure foundation for the future. It can be a lot of work, but 4 is adequately equipped for the work with its ability to focus on the details of the steps required to reach specific goals.”
The energy of 4 can also be rigid and fixed in its shadow, so, as uncomfortable as it might be sometimes, see where you can expand your idea of how to go about reaching your goals in new ways.
Have a beautiful week, and take care of yourselves.
Xo
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