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Your Weekly Oracle Reading (03.06.2023)
Releasing father wounds for good.
Happy Monday, friends.
Thank you for your patience with today’s reading. If my energy ever feels off, I prefer to wait until I’m grounded again to conduct readings, so here we are.
Before we dive into this week’s message, a couple of quick announcements…
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Lastly, there’s going to be some changes with my services. I can’t tell you what just yet, but I’m feeling nudged to reel it back a bit. I’m setting the intention to have clarity on this by the end of the month, but just wanted to give you a heads up.
OK, we have a jam-packed week energetically, so you might already be feeling it. We have the Virgo Full Moon tomorrow and Saturn entering Pisces, a transit that lasts roughly 2.5 to 3 years.
Fixed placements (Aquarius, Leo, Scorpio, Taurus) are going to feel a lot of relief with this since Saturn has been in its home sign of Aquarius for roughly three years, and also in its other home of Capricorn for a few years before that. So, it’s been a lot, as I’m sure you already know.
Interestingly enough, Saturn in astrology can represent the father, and father wounds have come up in this week’s reading.
For whoever this message is for, you may be going through a final cleansing at this time, specifically where it relates to your inner masculine wounds. There’s a sense that there’s been a lack of roots or feeling of home for you for a very long, and this might have something to do with the lack of a stable father figure in your life.
This created emotional wounding in feeling safe with your masculine energy, and instead relying on wounded masculine energy to take the lead (aggressive, ego-centered, controlling).
Much of this is stemming from a fear of losing control, because there was a lack of safety in your upbringing, which translated into a lack of safety within yourself. You may have found that you don’t trust yourself to follow through on things, or even trust that you’re worthy of the things you’re calling in.
For some, there may be a buried need to gain “daddy’s approval,” something that has subconsciously played out through constant achievement and seeking validation from other people in hopes that it feels the void left by the lack of healthy masculine love in your life.
If this resonates with you, know that you’ve been doing the work to clear and heal this. You’ve been healing your inner masculine in order for it to show up in a healthy way for you, and it is.
Any instability or lack of support you’ve faced in the past is going to be reconciled with the way you’re going to show up for yourself. And you might surprise yourself.
Your inner masculine is this King of Pentacles. This is a provider, a leader, a protector, someone who is reliable, kind and most importantly, safe.
It may have taken a while for you to trust that you can show up for yourself in this way, mainly because of the criticism that continued to play out in your inner dialogue. These words were not your own. They were what you used to rationalize your father’s absence, whether that was physically or emotionally.
As messed up as it sounds, it’s almost like you needed to convince yourself that you’re not worthy to make sense of why he wasn’t there for you.
If that’s true for you, I send you so much compassion and would like to gently remind you that while there’s no excuse for a parent abandoning their child in any way, there may be more to the story than you’re aware of. And that’s not to give a pass, but it is to free you from the narrative you’ve held on to that makes you believe you need anyone else’s approval to feel enough.
This week is a time of rest and recuperation.
Maybe you need some solitude to gather yourself and your thoughts, so you can be clear on how you want to move forward during this next chapter of your life.
While self-protection is a theme you’re a master at, be mindful of what it is you’re protecting yourself from. Sometimes what feels like protection is actually imprisonment, and sometimes who you actually need protection from is that voice in your head that keeps you stuck in unhealthy cycles.
There may need to be some mourning here. Grief is blocking your heart from opening up to new possibilities, new connections and new beginnings. So, let yourself fall apart.
Mourn the people who’ve left your life. Mourn the parents you deserved but never got. Mourn the hopes and wishes you had for your life that didn’t end up being a reality. Mourn how you thought your life would go, so that you can find room to love how it’s unfolding.
There’s Taurus energy here, as well as Libra (Jupiter) energy and Aries (Venus) energy, so these placements may be significant for you or someone else connected to this reading as additional confirmation, but they don’t have to be.
The numerology of this reading is technically an 8, but the two 4s are standing out to me more, so we’re gonna go with that. In numerology, 44 is “about changing, healing, regenerating, and building…and also reminds you to not forget that you can ask for help.”
The number 44 is a number of manifestation, and with it reducing to 8, it’s a reminder that abundance is within reach.
It’s time to be the father you always needed to yourself.
Have a beautiful week, and take care of yourselves.
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